Life and Excelsior

Excelsior.
In the other words, 
Be positive, think positive, act positive.
And if u stick to it, u will get all the positive results and 
a positive, happy life.
Yeah as simple as that.
But, indeed, it's easier said than done, for some cases.
Still, u can try. Little by little, maybe?
If u didn't push yourself out for something better, who else will?

In addition, have some faith my friends.
God didn't give u anything neither do the obstacles nor tests,
any of those, that u couldn't bear with.
Trust Him, have faith in Him,
as He knows better what's best for u.
Yeah greater than u do, love.

Sometimes, u may wants something
but it's just not what u need, really, on that time.
And sometimes, u may think that there are nothing good
with it or in it, but truth is, there'll be, always be,
something better, even greater,
lies beneath it or at the end of it later.

Life is hard, or some might said it's challenging,
but if u ignored excelsior, ignored faith,
and welcome negativity,
it will be harder and harder than it gets.
Maybe till it could turned into the worst.

In fact, if u're a Muslim, we've known that our deen had 
thought us to always think and choose positive things
on top of other choices, as well as in our life.
So, this is it love. Excelsior. 
Think. And Change. 

Excelsior. That's what we need in life. No matter how hard, how bad, how worst, u just have to believes in them. Stay put with the faith to the God and it all will going out right. :)

:)

23 Countdown : Pampered & Surprised

Thank you sweetheart! :3

March 27, yes that was the date of the countdown.

But it all begin with the day before. As on that evening, my sister asked me to accompanied her

to the mall as she said she wanted to bought something more for the Pavlova making. 

Well, i'm just agreed as we're actually had planned about making the pavlova days before 26/3.

So, without any doubts, i just agreed. Then she said, "let's go to the cinema too, the epic movie had released u know". But i was like, ummm, idk, yeah cause i know that my hubby wouldn't be interested to joint us as he'd just came back home on that evening, so it wouldd be a nooooooo to go the cinema for the movie. Even if i knew he would be fine & just let me watched it with my sister, but yeah u know, it wouldn't be good that way..i'll just felt bad. so it's a no for the cinema & movies.

Still, i'm going to accompanied her for the Pavlova thingy shopping. So i went on to put on my clothes, changed my babby pumpkin Eva's clothes, then we're ready to go.

At first she said she wanna buy em at the Tesco, so, okay then, i just put up something reaaalllyyyyy simple and go. yeah cause obviously it will just take a while, not longer,.

but then, while we're on our way to the mall, she said she was starving, and maybe we could stop and had our dinner first before we're headed to the soooo Tesco. 

Again without any doubt and because of i was starving as well, i just agreed to dine first.

She brought me to The Windmill, where we've agreed to have western for dinner as she knew i had much TomYam before so of course i'd choose western for dinner.

When we entered, still, there's nothing fishy, but then when we're just entered the another inside corner of the restaurant, they just got me! They were all of my family members, already sat there waiting for us :D 

They're totally got me! i've never thought any of that could happened :)

So, the excitedness begun. As usual, we've ordered foods  drinks, bleh bleh bleh, then my hubby surprisedly came with the gifts & my baby camera, oh of course i was really happy with them! i felt so pampered yet totally surprised! So when the food was served, we ate, talk, laugh, bleh bleh bleh,

 then here comes the next surprise, my birthday cake!

Oh god it was my favourite, Red Velvet with cream cheese :D

All the way by my sister's friend, oh i love the ones from her, it's awesomely yummy!

I've never thought that i would got this cake on this day or until Eva's birthday next April.

Cause yeah at first we've planned that this RV cake will be the cake for Eva's birthday,

as my hubby said it'll be a joint celebration for me & Eva, which our birthday were nearer to each other,

i'm 27/3 while my pumpkin Eva on 5/4. So my hubby planned this year will be a join celebration.

But well, guess it's not anymore :) Heheheeeeee :3

gifts from my hubby :) thanks dear for this lovely watch & card! :3

i thought we're just finished with the dinner treats, but there're many more!

Oh god only u knew how surprised i was & how joyful & grateful 

god just everywonderthings i felt on that moment! :)

So they're sang me happy birthday , and brought me gifts, awesome gifts ahead :3

after those bubbly moments and we're finished our food and everything, it's time to went home.

but firstly of course we've been vainedly again for some crazy fun shots outside of the restaurant.

Then, we're happily find way home... :)

Dear god, thanks for the lovely & thoughtful yet surprisedly wonderful evening. 

Family, u guys really are my everything.

I love u guys from the bottom of my heart.

U guys had always made me felt damn special & needed.

Thanks a lot for the lovely, awesome, thoughtful, wonderful, bubbly night!

Alhamdulillah :)

xoxo

**here's some of the pictures from that night. Beautiful moment captured! Enjoyyyy :)

It's us! except for our big sis :(

mommy's daughterssss :3

the main yummy-full-tummy course :3

my awesome sister :)

dear mamita & daddy with my sugarbug, Eva :)

Smells good gift. Thanks sis! :3

Another gift from mommy & lil sis. Thanks xxx :3

Last but not least, the legendary fav cake of mine! :3

The Last Night Scene

Last night was a little bit of terrified, bizarre, yet needful for me.
It was 4.15 am, when I was suddenly woke up, where there were loud thunder & lightning
that went on and on, continuously.
The lightning was so bright and clear, till it made me felt like someone had played with
the light or something flashy, switched it on and off over and over, right in front of my face.
And as for the thunder, oh dear god, it just felt like He was so mad, really mad at us,
where it went real loud, continuously, scary, - like someone was shouting on and on fiercely
at u, till it shake up the wall from the ground.
Around with the heavy rain, yeah, it was terrifying.
Still, it made me thought of something, and even lots of pop up thoughts that came into
my mind on those very moment.

First of all, of course, about the He mad thingy.
Yeah I did felt it whenever that there was thunder or something.
Of course, it's such a blessed when it's rain, but at the same time, if there's loud thunder,
I always like kept it to myself that it was such a notice too. u know.
Umm more to a lil reminder, which to reminds me of Him, my dear Lord Allah the Almighty.
In addition to the reminder where He's the only one that controls everything,
the only powerful, everything. Yet to reminds me of my own sins, or how remiss I am,
thus, better get into the right path now, enough with laic, also, not to forget Him,
not to forget His love towards us, and every great things that He gave,
and always, always give in our life.
Yeah as a human being, we couldn't avoid from make mistakes,
but this little reminder could made us remember that we had Him,
in fact, always, had Him.
In a simple words, it had helped me to be a better muslimah, InsyaAllah.
Furthermore, it's also can help me to stay in the path, to istiqomah, InsyaAllah, Aamiinn.

Then, (bout the last night scene of course) it tend to made me thought like,
were there some kind of severe misfortune would befall?
Oh dear god hopefully it'll be averted from us, Aamiinn.
Cause yeah it wasn't impossible, u know,
remember bout Pompeii, the people of Lut? click here for full stories
and lots of examples from the past that we could thought of.

 Oh Dear Lord, forgive us, mercy us, protect us from those bad, and please, guide them who made this land dirtier, guide them and guide us Lord, please save this land, O Allah the Merciful, the Powerful,. Ya Allah, Alhamdulillah, thank you Ya Allah that you are still give us the chances, eventhough how dirty, how awful we sinners have made, O Allah, only You, the One and Only with the greatest Love of all. Dear Lord, please save this land Ya Allah..Aamiinn..

Seriously, I didn't wanna have the same fate as them (the previous people like I've stated above),
we're even luckier here in Malaysia that He didn't gave us one, even like the bad big tsunami
in some nearer countries around us (just as example) , which I know, He could.
with this awful, dirty land, oh Dear God, I'm speechless.
And as for last night, oh god, I tend to thought that were we would drown or something?
were this land would been wiped out? or were there a / some place that
been drown or anything on that time? or maybe anything else that might be happened?
Oh Dear Lord. Cause I felt like it did, u know,
I never experienced the rain and the thunder and everything like how it went last night.
I could even thought to recorded it, but idk I just stilted there,
I only could thoughts, prayed and zikr. Which as always, zikr had always made me felt better,
and for last night, Alhamdulillah, pull me back to sleep.

On a second thought bout the misfortune thingy, idk, yeah as we're the people of the end of time,
will it be any such 'hard reminder' that will fall upon us before the doomsday?
Oh Dear Lord only You could answered that.
If u said it will, then it will be.
But hopefully it will be averted from us..

Well, it's quite a scene and pretty special moment for me.
Even though it was kinda terrifying, somehow it's special.
The most special thing bout it,
it was the another example of how Greatest His Love are,
which He kinda showed to me from it. I mean He let me think that way. idk.
I guess to all of us too. Even everything that happened in our life,
contains thousands of messages that lies beneath it from Him.
And when I woke up again this morning, saw everything were just fine,
the air that He gave me to breathe was so fresh, the cool breeze,
it's just lovely, very lovely. And I felt so much love from Him.
Love that we couldn't imagine, how greatest, super duper greatest it is, to us.
Yeah us, tiny-nothing us.
Dear god, Alhamdulillah, thank u for everything Dear Merciful Lord :')

note to self

note to self

The Sun & The True Love : Why?

Once upon a time, there's a lovely couple who often spend their times together at the park
full with beautiful flowers, have an exquisite fountain, breathtaking scenery, etc.
They do love the wonderful nature, as they're always find those kind of place to relax 
and regale themselves.

One day, as they're lying on the grass,  luxuriate those beautiful, wonderful butterflies 
and flowers around them, accompanied by gentle breeze and the warm lovely sunshine,
the woman asks the man about love & hope.
The woman said, " I wanna be the most exquisite flower in the whole world."
Then the man smiled and replied, " I wanna be the sun."

The woman didn't get it why the man repudiate to be something else such as the
butterfly or the beetle that will keep on accompany the flowers.
Hence, the woman surmise again, " I wanna be the moon",
but still, the man choose to be the sun.

It started to looks like muzzy died on top of her head. She knows that obviously 
the sun and the moon wouldn't ever get the chances to meet each other, 
but still, the man choose to be the sun.
So, as not to giving it up, she surmise some more, " I wanna be a bird that could fly
up above the sky and over off top of the sun"
but then still, the man replied, " I wanna always be your sun."

Hence, the woman bitterly smile yet frustrated. It had been like 3 times that
she's trying and surmising, but still, the man stubbornly choose to be the sun 
without compromising any in order to be with her. So, she left and never 
returns to the man without never asks him why he kept chose the sun as his choices.
The man wistfully brood over himself then stare upon the sun.

While the woman choose to be the flowers, he choose to be the sun in order to
make sure that the woman will continuously alive. The sun will give all of the rays so that
the flower will grow healthily, flourish bloom as a beautiful flower.
This is what we called with give unconditionally, with no intention of having anything as a return.

Then, as the woman wanna be the moon, he still choose to be the sun so that the moon 
can always shine beautifully and been admired.
The beautiful shine of the moon is just a reflection of sunlight. While everyone was 
admired and impressed with the moon, whom remembered the sun?
The sun is willing to give its own shine all over to the moon even though it couldn't
ever enjoyed the moonlight itself, honors been forgotten, and even lose its dignity
as a giver of light, just in order to let the moon get all of the dignity and respectability.
This is what we called with sacrifices, it's painful but it's highly worthy for these kind of love.

Last but not least, while the woman said that she wanna be a bird which can fly far 
above the sky and over the top of the sun, the man remains his choice as  to be the sun
so that the bird will be free to go anytime and anywhere that it wanted to as the sun
didn't wanna impede it. The sun is willing to let go of the bird to go and leave far,
but it'll always keep the smolder love in it's heart just for the bird.
The sun will always be there whenever that the bird wanna returns 
even when the bird isn't always there for the sun. There'll be no other creatures
that could go into it's heart and get the love, except for the only bird.
This is what we called with devotion, even abandoned, or betrayed, still,
it will always waiting and always forgive. 
Thus, the man was never regret to be the sun for his woman.

** Sometimes, true love may seems foolish and blind or even unacceptable, but
    we can't help it. No matter how painful u bear, if it's a true love,
    u just hold it tight to your heart and face it, swallow it, and also
    keep on praying and trying for it's best.
    Whenever that he/she is happy, somehow,
    u'll find some happiness in there too.
    No matter what, keep on living.
    If he/she is meant for u, then it'll be. If not, then there'll be someone else 
    out there who will suits u better, even greater.
    No worries, every cloud has a silver lining. 
    God knows what's best for u greater than u do.


:)

Kita Semua Tempayan Retak

Tersebutlah kisah, ada seorang tukang air yang memiliki dua tempayan besar,
masing2 bergantung pada kedua hujung suatu pikulan,
yang dibawa menyilang pada bahu si tukang air tersebut.
Satu drpd tempayan itu retak, manakala satu lg tempayan tidak.
Tempayan yang utuh itu dapat membawa air penuh setelah perjalanan panjang 
dari mata air ke rumah majikannya, akan tetapi tempayan retak itu hanya dapat 
membawa air setengah penuh sahaja.

Selama dua tahun hal itu terjadi setiap hari. Si tukang air hanya dapat membawa 
satu setengah tempayan air ke rumah majikannya. 
Tentu saja si tempayan utuh itu berasa bangga akan prestasinya kerana 
dapat menunaikan tugasnya dengan sempurna.
Namun, si tempayan retak yang malang itu malu sekali akan 
ketidaksempurnaannya dan sedih sebab ia hanya dapat memberi 
setengah dari bahagian yang sepatutnya.
Setelah dua tahun tertekan oleh kegagalannya itu, si tempayan retak pun berkata pada
si tukang air, "Saya sungguh malu pada diri saya sendiri, dan saya ingin memohon maaf kpdmu"
tanya si tukang air, "Kenapa kamu berasa malu?"
"Saya hanya mampu, selama dua tahun ini, membawa setengah bahagian air dari yang sepatutnya
saya bawa kerana adanya retakan pada sisi saya yang membuatkan air yang saya bawa bocor 
sepanjang jalan ke rumah majikan kita. Kerana cacatku ini, saya telah membuatkanmu rugi." jawab
tempayan itu.

Si tukang air berasa kasihan pada si tempayan retak,
dan di dalam belas kasihannya, ia berkata, "Jika kita kembali ke rumah majikan esok,
aku ingin kamu perhatikan bunga2 indah di sepanjang jalan."
Benar, ketika mereka naik ke bukit, si tempayan retak memperhatikan dan barulah
dia menyedari bahawa ada bunga2 indah di sepanjang sisi jalan, dan itu dapat 
membuatkannya sedikit terhibur.
Namun, pada akhir perjalanan, ia kembali sedih kerana separuh daripada air
yang dibawanya telah bocor, dan lagi sekali dia meminta maaf 
pada si tukang air atas kegagalannya.

Si tukang air berkata pada tempayan retak itu, "Apakah kamu memperhatikan 
adanya bunga2 di sepanjang jalan di sisimu tetapi tidak ada bunga di sepanjang jalan
di sisi tempayan yang utuh itu?"
"Ya,.." jawab tempayan tersebut. Si tukang air menyambung lagi,
"Itu kerana aku selalu menyedari akan kecacatanmu dan aku manfaatkannya. Aku
telah menanam benih2 bunga di sepanjang jalan disisimu, dan setiap hari apabila kita berjalan
pulang dari tempat mata air, kamu mengairi benih2 itu sehinggalah ia membesar,
berkembang mekar menjadi bunga2 yang indah. Selama dua tahun ini aku dapat memetik
bunga2 indah itu untuk menghias meja dan rumah majikan kita. Tanpa kamu sebagaimana
yang kamu ada, kita tidak akan dapat menghias rumah majikan kita seindah sekarang."
Si tempayan retak berasa sangat terharu, dan sejak dari itu dia tidak lagi bersedih akan kekurangannya.

** Setiap dari kita memiliki cacat / kekurangan kita yang tersendiri. Kita semua 
adalah tempayan retak. Namun, usah takut akan kekurangan yang kita ada.
Kenalilah kelemahanmu dan kamu pun dapat manfaatkannya untuk orang lain.
Tidak ada yang terbuang percuma di mata-Nya.
Ketahuilah, di dalam kelemahan kita, kita menemukan kekuatan kita.
Seseorang boleh disebut sebagai orang yang berjaya jika mampu terus hidup
dan menikmatinya dengan penuh kesyukuran di dada.
Berusahalah dan kuatkan diri. Cuba berfikir dari sudut yang berbeza.
Tiada siapa di dunia ini yang sempurna. 

:)

Hijrah Itu Indah : Terima Kasih Ramadhan

Hijrah.
Alhamdulillah, syukur, teramat syukur saya dipertemukan dengannya.
Dengan hanya seimbas muka, sesepoi angin berbahasa,
Hijrah itu datang pada saya.
Syukur. Dengan kuasa Yang Maha Esa,
saya terpilih untuk disapa. Alhamdulillah! :)

Tak perlu untuk saya ungkit siapa dan bagaimana saya
sebelum ia datang menyapa.
Cukuplah dengan, HIJRAH ini memang perlu,
dan membahagiakan. :)
Semuanya bermula dengan satu detik yang tak dapat saya gambarkan.

Pada suatu ketika dulu, saya mula berminat untuk
ambil tahu / cari dengan lebih mendalam mengenai isi2 dunia - zahir & batinnya.
Saya mula membaca pelbagai artikel / cerita & pelbagai perkara - Dajjal,
kiamat, bumi, dunia, kisah2 zaman dahulu / kisah2 zaman Nabi, dsb,
yang mana membuatkan mata saya lebih terbuka,
minda saya lebih celik & hati mula berkata2.

Yang paling terkesan di hati & benak pemikiran saya adalah
dari sumber ini :
dinaremas.com/wahyu terakhir nabi muhammad misi gereja vatican --> please click here and read
- ditambah dgn penerangan & perluasan skop penceritaan dan
pelbagai perkara lagi yang berkaitan oleh abang saya, MasyaAllah,
sedikit demi sedikit, saya mula sedar, betapa terlekanya saya,
betapa butanya saya, betapa hanyutnya saya dengan dunia yang fana ini. Allahuakbar..

Sampai di suatu ketika, saya sering memikirkan,
bagaimana agaknya dikala kematian saya nanti? Pekara2 selepas mati,
kiamat, dan sebagainya. Ya Allah, apa yang saya ada untuk hadapinya?
Apa bekalan yang saya boleh bawa, yang saya ada?
MasyaAllah... mampukah saya hadapinya sedemikian rupa? Ya allah..
Saya sematkan dalam hati, niat pada diri,
saya nak berubah. Saya perlu berHIJRAH!

Saya mula cuba cukupkan solat, cuba perbaiki diri ke arah kebaikan,
mula hindari segala yang tidak sepatutnya dan dekati apa yang saya jarang dekati dulu, dsb.
Subhanallah, tak terkata keindahan dan ketenangannya.. :')

Alhamdulillah.. Syukur teramat syukur juga sbb sy sudh pun selamat berkahwin.
Ya, kahwin muda, kahwin awal. Ya Allah, sungguh, jika kamu semua tahu
betapa beruntungnya berkahwin di usia yang muda ini, pasti kamu semua pun positif tentangnya.
Nak dapat pahala, masyaallah, senangnya kawan2..dan ditambah dengan penghijrahan
yang berlaku ini, Ya Allah lagi lah kawan2, sungguh, saya rasa lagi bahagia
dengan hidup saya & tenang jiwa raga.
Sesungguhnya, Dialah sebaik-baik pengatur, hanya Dia, Allah Yang Maha Bijaksana
lagi Maha Mengetahui tentang sesuatu perkara.
Saya pernah juga terfikir, dan selalu jugak memikirkan,
kalaulah saya masih belum berkahwin sekarang ni, bagaimanalah kehidupan saya..
mungkin saya tak dapat peluang berhijrah ni, sbb masih di takuk lama, leka dengan dunia..
Mungkin di takuk yang lama, atau mungkin juga jadi lebih teruk?lebih hanyut?
Astaghfirullahalazim, Nauzubillah..
Alhamdulillah syukur, saya sudah berkahwin dan berhijrah,
kini masih lagi dalam proses penghijrahan..baiki diri ke arah lebih baik
dari segala sudut dan aspek..banyak lagi yang perlu saya pelajari..

HIJRAH BERHIJAB

Dalam ketika saya mula beri perhatian pada perkara2 yang sepatutnya itu,
saya sebenarnya sudah punya rasa untuk berhijab.
Saya mahu, namun, macam tak berapa punya keberanian,
atau, tak tahulah mcm mana saya nak gmbarkan.
Sampaila pada satu hari ni, saya ingat lagi, masa tu bulan puasa,
Ramadhan 2012 if i'm not mistaken,
Masa tu, saya nak pergi ke bazaar Ramadhan dgn mama & adik saya,
saya still doubt, "nk pakai tak, nak pakai tak...."
"Mm..fuuhhhhh..." ( tarik nafas panjang & lepas dlm2 )
"Pakai jelah, Bismillahirrahmannirrahim......." - pakai je tudung tu then terus keluar :)
Alhamdulillah, start dari hari tu, sampailah sekarang, saya masih kekal berhijab :)

Sampaikan kini, saya mcm dh sgt biasa dgn berhijab.
Kalau tak berhijab / tak pakai pakaian yang sempurna pula yang saya akan rasa tak selesa
dan mmg takkan keluar mana2 shopping ke ape ke if saya tak berhijab
dan pakai pakaian yang sempurna. Alhamdulillah. :)

Kadang2 tu, sampai saya akn terbayang dosa2 tak tutup kepala, kaki, etc,
mcm rambut dibakar tu, etc. Umm ye mmg agk, um, tak taulah,
tp mmg mcm tu lah sy skrg.
Mungkin org akn ckp sy freak / obses dgn dosa/pahale / whatever,
tapi hakikatnya, bukankah itu realitinya di sana nanti? :)
Oklah, itu bab berhijab.

Overall, alhamdulillah, saya syukur Allah sayangkan saya dan beri saya peluang untuk berhijrah.
Kawan2 yang mungkin ada something yang belum & perlu dibuat, hopefully korang dapat buat
dan berhijrah juga. Tak rugi pun, malah macam2 yang baik yang korang akn dpt,
seriously, trust me ;)
Bagi yang nak / ada rasa2 / etc , maybe korang mcm malu, or takut, or fikir orang2 akan
cakap ape, etc, DON'T! JUST DO IT, K?! fikirlah, bila lagi? kan..
Kalau nak senang kuatkan semangat untuk berhijrah, try ingat mati. Mati itu pasti.
Nak ke, sanggup ke kita mati mcm tu, mcm ni (yang buruk2) ? or tak cukup bekalan ke, or
worst, mati dlm munafik / keadaan memalukan / tak diredhai or bukan dlm Islam ke, etc, Ya Allah Nauzubillah, moga dijauhkanlah dari kita..Aamiinn....

Jangan peduli apa org kata, usah gusar apa2, yang penting, kita cuba, & kekalkan.
Allah ada. Dia sentiasa ada dgn kita & untuk kita, sedia & nak dgr apa saja luahan hati kita.
Tambahan dgn niat & permintaan yg baik, krn Allah, lg luas jln kita. InsyaAllah.

Kalau rasa tak mampu nak ubah semua sekaligus, cuba satu persatu.
Ye, nak berubah bukannya mudah. Pasti banyak cabarannya.
Mungkin, cabaran yang paling susah, nak istiqomah.
Namun, jangan risau..Yakinlah pada diri..Yakinlah pada Allah, ya?
Saya selalu terbaca, 'Kalau kita nak buat perkara baik / ke arah kebaikan,
Allah akan utuskan orang2 yang baik untuk kita juga..' (lebih kurang camtula)
Tapi benar. Percayalah. Sebab saya dah laluinya. :)

Dan mereka itu pasti akan membantu kamu, menyokong kamu, dan saling
ingat mengingatkan antara satu sama lain.
Antara contoh 'mereka' yang saya ada selain suami & seluruh keluarga adalah
Team Hijrah. kerana mereka juga terdiri drp org2 yg berhijrah. :)

Jangan takut. Cuba dekati, cuba selami, cuba perhati.
Ia ada dalam diri, ada dalam hati. kena cuba cari.
Step by step.
Alhamdulillah syukur, terima kasih Ya Allah. Terima kasih Ramadhan. :)
Sama2lah kita teruskan perjuangan & penghijrahan ini. Moga sama2 istiqomah.
 Wassalam.

:)

Friendship : The Movie & The Thoughts - inspired by Bridesmaid

Last night i've watched a movie entitled Bridesmaid. It is a great, fun movie,
somehow, it made me thoughts of few things.
Well, by watching it, it gave us some issue or few things that pop up which we might neglected nor never thoughts of them in our life, or maybe it's just not that boldly pop out while we're in our reality.
um, before i begin with these thoughts, guess i should go with the storyline first,
in case u didn't watch it yet right...
ok then, here it goes. :

Lilian & Annie were bestfriend, way from their childhood up till present
that they've reached 30's and unmarried.
One day, Lilian's boyfriend proposed her,
So she had stick in her mind that Annie is her maid of honor.
They're excitingly wanna plan & face through everything as Annie is happy & excited for her too.
Annie, though, didn't have any steady boyfriend, yet a dickhead jackass guy who were just using her
and taking her for granted. But still, she just stay & stick around with no choice.

On Lilian's Engagement party, Lilian introduces Annie to some of her fiancee's relatives
and also to her new bff Helen. At first, Annie & Helen were just going on fine,
they didn't felt any competitive or whatever bad feelings towards each other
but then when it's come to the speech giving moment, there goes the excitement.
It's started with a competitive speeches from them until the crowds feels awkward
with their behaviour that time. It is seems awkward.
Then, they're always trying to fight each other on each every angle
for who's the best bff for Lilian, trying to show off who can handle the best
for Lilian's wedding, everything, from the dining, dress, wedding theme,
invitation's way, bachelorette party ideas, etc.
It came up with dirty plays, emotions, etc, until it's ruined their friendship.
It became worst because Helen the new bff make it dirty with stealing Annie's
ideas about everything, make Annie looks miserable to Lilian and then win up & take in
charge for everything until Annie blow up badly at Lilian's bachelorette party,
until Annie and Lilian's bff-ship broke too.
So, okay, the rest i think u should watch it yourself,
 as u'll not regret it, i promise u, hehe.
It is a great, fun & cute story :)

Okay the point is, i mean,
the first thought is, actually Annie did mention,
"Do bestfriend will lasts forever? Forever, really?"
Yeah obviously it's when she had those kinda 'heartbreaks' on those incidents.
Then, "people's change" or "people can change but their heart would stay at something,etc,"
bleh bleh bleh something like that, umm yeah u know what i mean.
Yeah obviously it is about friendship, boldly, bff-ship.
such a big thing,.mm many thoughts can pop out from it
based on what situation u're in to, right? some may say experiences, etc. too.

Some bff stays even if they have their separate life, some may not.
Some bff will change when they have meet such new bff or having more time
with them, and it'll come up with few situation :
either they ( with the old bff ) still stay great,
or
they'll stay good but not that much bff anymore,
or
they'll far apart distantly with baby steps,
or
they'll just disappear
or maybe just anything else.

As for the competitive feellings towards the new and the old bff, do u think it's exist?
Yeah some will, some may not. or sometimes, it does, a little bit,
but u just acted like u're fine and didn't wanna follow it much. i guess.
Well, as for Helen, yeah, it's kinda a lil bitch to did those, but um,
Annie too, shouldn't blow up badly that way either.
Maybe they can be good friends / even bestfriend too,
or just settling it right, for Lilian, right?
but yeah of course mostly it wouldn't happened.
Mostly, the new one & the old one would just be fine,
or
fine but the new one winning more over
or whatsoever that a lot could be happened.

Hence, the best ending is when they all three going up great, cooping each other, right?
Well, the most greatest friendship or bff-ship ever is when u had reach true one,
where even if u're not spending time as much as u used to before, or rarely meet
or talk anymore but the hearts still felt the same & stronger, saying that the person is our bff,
and never lost, still caring etc for each other, well, that's the greatest of all.
No matter how many friends had changed, come and go, in our life,
no matter how far, the true one will always stay. Physically, and in our heart.

If u have someone who were like that, even one,
then u're lucky.
U really are.
Cheerish your life & your bff-ship! :)

Have a happy Friday and thanks for those who'd spare some time to read :)

Muhasabah Diri : Kisah Lelaki Yang Bernazar

Kesan Air Tangan Orang Yang Tak Solat

Semua orang tahu bahawa kalau meninggalkan solat adalah dosa besar dan malahan lebih hina daripada khinzir. Betapa hinanya kita kalau meninggalkan solat seperti yang dikisahkan pada zaman Nabi Musa as. Begini kisahnya, pada zaman Nabi Musa, ada seorang lelaki yang sudah berumahtangga, dia tiada zuriat, lalu terdetik dalam hati dia (nazar), “kalau aku dapat anak, aku akan minum air kencing anjing hitam.” Nak dijadikan cerita, Allah pun kurniakan isteri si lelaki tadi pun hamil dan melahirkan anak. Apabila dah dapat anak, lelaki ni pun runsinglah.

Dia dah nazar nak kena minum air kencing anjing hitam. Syariat pada zaman Nabi Musa berbeza dengan syariat yang turun untuk umat Nabi Muhammad. Kalau umat Nabi Muhammad, nazar benda yang haram, maka tak payah buat tapi kena denda (dam) atau sedekah.

Tapi kalau zaman Nabi Musa, barangsiapa bernazar, walaupun haram tetap kena laksanakan nazar itu.

Lalu, si lelaki yang baru mendapat anak, dengan susah hatinya pergilah bertemu dengan Nabi Allah Musa dan menceritakan segala yang terjadi ke atas dirinya. Lalu, Nabi Musa menjawab bahawa lelaki tu tak perlu minum air kencing anjing hitam tetapi akan minum air yang lebih hina dari air kencing anjing hitam. Nabi Musa perintahkan lelaki tersebut untuk pergi menadah air yang jatuh dari bumbung rumah orang yang meninggalkan solat dan minum air tu Lelaki itu pun senang hati, menjalankan apa yang diperintahkan oleh Nabi Musa tadi. Lihatlah, betapa hinanya orang yang meninggalkan solat, sampai dikatakan air yang jatuh dari bumbung rumahnya, lebih hina dari air kencing anjing hitam. Itu baru air bumbung rumah, belum air tangan lagi. Menyentuh bab air tangan, selalu kita suka makan masakan ibu; isteri kita. Jadi, kepada muslimat sekalian, peliharalah solat kerana kalau meninggalkan solat (kalau tak uzur), air tangan akan menitik ke dalam basuhan makanan, nasi, dsb.

Anak-anak, suami pula yang akan makan makanan yang dimasak. Takkan nak biarkan suami dan anak-anak gelap hati minum air tangan orang tinggalkan solat. Tak gamak kan? Tapi lain pula halnya dengan kita ni. Pagi petang, mamak! Teh tarik satu, roti canai satu. Ada pulak segelintir tukang masak yang tak solat. Kita pun makan bekas air tangan dia. Gelaplah hati kita, sebab tu liat nak buat kerja-kerja yang baik. Beware apa yang kita makan. Betapa beratnya amalan solat ni hatta Allah syariatkan solat kepada Nabi Muhammad melalui Isra’ Mikraj sedangkan kewajipan-kewajipan lain memadai diutus melalui Jibril as.

Ketika saat Rasulullah nazak, sempat baginda berpesan kepada Saidina Ali (dan untuk umat Islam), “As-solah as Solah wa amalakat aimanukum”. Maknanya, “Solat, solat jangan sekali kamu abaikan dan peliharalah orang-orang yang lemah di bawah tanggunganmu” Jadi, sama-samalah kita pelihara solat dari segi zahir & batinnya kerana amalan solatlah amalan yang mula-mula akan ditimbang di neraca Mizan kelak. Hidup bukan untuk makan, tetapi makan untuk hidup. Jika makan dengan niat ibadah akan mendapat pahala. – Wallahu a’lam.

*Sama-sama kita muhasabah diri & moga bermanfaat

5 Believe it or not FACTS! Must Read!

1. Jika anda makan SATAY, jangan pula lupa timunnya, sebabnya memakan satay bersama karbon yang terhasil selepas pembakaran akan mendatangkan kesan karsinogen! Apa bendanya karsinogen tu? (Ianya ialah suatu keadaan yang menyebabkan barah). Timun pula adalah anti-karsinogen.

2. Jangan makan UDANG selepas mengambil PIL VITAMIN C ! Yang mana anda akan mati keracunan Arsenik dalam beberapa jam sahaja.


3. Barah akibat penggunaan bahan dalam SHAMPOO. Balik rumah dan pergi periksa. Tukarlah ke jenama lain sebelum terlambat, jika kandungan dalam shampoo anda mengandungi Sodium Laureth Sulfate atau ringkasnya SLS. Bahan ini akan menyebabkan barah dalam jangka masa yang panjang dan ini bukannya jenaka. Shampoo yang disahkan mengandungi bahan ini ialah; VO5, Palmolive, Paul Mitchell, L'Oreal, Hemp Shampoo terbaru keluaran body shop, Nature Force dan lain-lain lagi. Shampoo Clairol's Herbal Essence adalah satu-satunya yang mengandungi Sodium Laureth Sulfate secara tunggal. Meskipun pertanyaan telahpun dibuat terhadap syarikat ini dan jawapan dari mereka ialah, "Ya memang kami dah tahu masalah ini tetapi kami tidak boleh melakukan apa-apa kerana kami memerlukan bahan yang boleh mengeluarkan buih yang banyak". Dalam pada itu, Pasta Colgate & Dee Dee (untuk kanak-kanak) turut mengandungi bahan yang sama untuk penghasilan buih

4. Kepada penggemar makanan jenis MEE SEGERA (tak kiralah maggi, koayteow dsb), Pastikan berhenti makan dulu sekurang-kurangnya 3 hari selepas mengambil mee segera sebelum mengambil paket yang seterusnya. Maklumat yang dikongsi bersama dengan seorang doctor. Keluarga saya telah menghentikan pengambilan makanan ini setelah mendapat tahu berkenaan salutan wax ke atas makanan ini. Inilah yang menyebabkan mee segera tidak melekat antara satu sama lain apabila dimasak. Telah dinyatakan terdahulu melalui SEORANG AKTOR dari SBC (sekarang ni dikenali sebagai TCS). Beberapa tahun lalu, yang mana kariernya membuatkan beliau sangat sibuk untuk memasak, jalan mudah mengambil mee segera setiap hari. Kemudiannya beliau disahkan menghidap barah. Barahnya disebabkan wax dalam mee segera. Doktor juga memberitahu yang badan manusia memerlukan 2 hari untuk membersihkan wax dari sistem badan. Seorang lagi mangsa yang serupa ialah Pramugara dari SIA yang mana setelah berpindah dari rumah ibunya ke rumahnya sendiri, Dia tidak memasak tetapi kerap makan mee segera. Dia didapati menghidap barah dan mati selepas itu. Sekarang ini tindakan memakan mee segera bolehlah diistilahkan sebagai 'makan untuk mendapat barah'.

5. BAWANG GORENG SEGERA, Seorang kawan melawat ke sebuah perusahaan kecil membuat bawang goreng, dan melihat terdapat banyak straw minuman. Yang bewarna dan tidak bewarna diasingkan. Apa yang mengejutkan ialah straw yang tidak bewarna dicampur bersama gorengan bawang yang bertujuan apabila plastik straw tersebut dipanaskan, ianya melebur lantas menyaluti bawang tersebut. Sebab itulah kalau bawang goreng segera yang dibeli terdedah kepada udara tak akan lembik tapi kalau kita buat sendiri lembik dalam masa yang singkat sahaja.

Sebarkanlah maklumat ini kepada orang- orang yang anda sayangi dan pengguna yang masih belum disedarkan lagi.

Moga bermanfaat ;)

A Malay Word - Cakna

Cakna.

Yes, 'cakna'.
Do u know what it meant?
Actually it all came from my hubby's bro,
he had left a comment on 1 of my hubby's post on fb and used this word which both of us didn't knew what it's stand for that time.
So, embarrasingly, i've asked Mr.Google and here's what it told me :

"Mengikut kamus dewan edisi ke-4, cakna berasal dari perkataan Terengganu yang bermaksud
 ambil peduli, ambil berat. "

Oh actually i've found it on a blog, umm i can't recall but it's about language.

Huhu feels epic with this words though,
and yeah i believe most of us, the youth, didn't have any idea of this word too,
am i right?
if u knew, then u're great & yes the salute is on u :)

Well, it's motivate me too to get used to those kinda words.
High level of malay words - i can say.
Cause as far as i know, it's rarely used nowadays.
Neither do heard it.

And yeah, i know i'm not that good in malay language & even
used English more in here / whatever but umm,
say & think what u'd love to k.
u're not in my shoes :)

ok yes i do felt embarrassed as i didn't know much bout this word or so,
i'm sorry i'm not perfect
but,
it's ok it doesn't matter.
later maybe.
or not.
huhu.
i'm just being me.
i'm comfortable babbling in English for now,
cause i didn't know who were my audience.
i didn't know who read any of mine or so.
so, i'm just comfortable with this kind of way.
but no worries, i'll mix it up with malays too people!
:)

Oh but that's not the main point in here.
Back to our details, yess Cakna.
well, the moral of the story is, a really big note to myself too & others too is that
we better learn ours, especially this kind of words etc,
preserved them, hold them, right?
No matter what languages u speak, u comfy with, or u used more with,
learning any other things especially those words wouldn't hurt,
it's some useful knowledge that we get.
U can use it nor save it right, the thing is u wanna learn & find a knowledge.
That's the importance of all.
Even our beloved prophet, Muhammad (pbuh) once said:
"Go in quest of knowledge even unto China."

:)

Eva oh Eva

Mmmm...
Aiyoolahaii Eva..
Beriye cook something for us td but she's still taknak makan.. :'(
Now die mmg tgh season xselere mkn..
Especially mknn die..
But if bg ice cream, cake, chocolate ke, hamboiiii
kemaen laju die ngange..hehe..
Well, as a mom, of course susah hati / sedih jugk..
My sis (biras) kak Linda pon facing the same probs here.
Oh ye so do kak Ieda, but si bobot tu sekedompot mok2 habes, 
so xdela kak ieda susah hati sgt rsenye kn..
Mm diorg ni berseason2 pulak..
jap selere kemaen makan, jap xnk..
nk maen je or just attracted to sweets.
aiyoo sayaaangggg...
Doctor ckp xleh biasekn die eat more sweets, takot nnt die lgsg xnk mam real meal die.
And kne bnykkn lg cube various food, tgk mane die nk.
yes she loves something new, but few bites je, then bosan dh, xnk dah.
Haa kelassss kau kn. huhu.
Td mskkn scramble egg, potato, mr.crab for her ( & me too)
dlm egg tu tmbhlaa cheese & mayo, then msk pon with butter,
konon nk bg die cpt gemoklaa kn
but then haaa amek kau die mkn ciput je,
penyudahnye diri sndr jugk yg kne hbeskn bny.
sapo yg gemok skrg nh? akuuu jugaaakkk :'(
yelaa, tak mkn kang membazer plak kn. huhuhuu
Dear Pumpkin, tolonglaa mkn lebih dr 3 4 suap ye? Poor mommy kannn..
hehee..
Haa now die dh bgn dr a lil nap td.
ape lg, eating mission in action. hehee.
Alhamdulillah, nk jugk die mkn lg. 
Takpelaa bialah betaon nk tunggu & bepuluh kali smbung2 mkn, asalkan die mkn bny sket.
hopefully season xselere mkn nh xlame laa kali ni. Aminnnn.. :)
Oh god i love it when she wants to eat, just eat. 
Takpelah, mama sabar & try je whatever slagi boleh k syg!

:)

Touched by Love

The passengers on the bus watched sympathetically as the attractive young woman with
the white cane made her way carefully up the steps. She paid the driver and, using her
hands to feel the location of the seats, walked down the aisle and found the seat he'd told
her was empty. Then she settled in, placed her briefcase on her lap and rested her cane
against her leg.

It had been a year since Susan, thirty-four, became blind. Due to a medical misdiagnosis
she had been rendered sightness, and she was suddenly thrown into a world of darkness,
anger, frustration and self-pity. Once a fiercely independent woman, Susan now felt
condemned by this terrible twist of fate to become a powerless, help-less burden on
everyone around her. "How could this have happened to me?" she would plead, her heart
knotted with anger. But no matter how much she cried or ranted or prayed, she knew the
painful truth—her sight was never going to return. A cloud of depression hung over
Susan's once optimistic spirit. Just getting through each day was an exercise in frustration
and exhaustion. And all she had to cling to was her husband Mark.

Mark was an Air Force officer and he loved Susan with all of his heart. When she first
lost her sight, he watched her sink into despair and was determined to help his wife gain
the strength and confidence she needed to become independent again. Mark's military
background had trained him well to deal with sensitive situations, and yet he knew this
was the most difficult battle he would ever face.

Finally, Susan felt ready to return to her job, but how would she get there? She used to
take the bus, but was now too frightened to get around the city by herself. Mark
volunteered to drive her to work each day, even though they worked at opposite ends of
the city. At first, this comforted Susan and fulfilled Mark's need to protect his sightless
wife who was so insecure about performing the slightest task. Soon, however, Mark
realized that this arrangement wasn't working—it was hectic, and costly. Susan is going
to have to start taking the bus again, he admitted to himself. But just the thought of
mentioning it to her made him cringe. She was still so fragile, so angry. How would she
react?

Just as Mark predicted, Susan was horrified at the idea of taking the bus again. "I'm
blind!" she responded bitterly. "How am I supposed to know where I'm going? I feel like
you're abandoning me."
Mark's heart broke to hear these words, but he knew what had to be done. He promised
Susan that each morning and evening he would ride the bus with her, for as long as it
took, until she got the hang of it.

And that is exactly what happened. For two solid weeks, Mark, military uniform and all,
accompanied Susan to and from work each day. He taught her how to rely on her other
senses, specifically her hearing, to determine where she was and how to adapt to her new
environment. He helped her befriend the bus drivers who could watch out for her, and
save her a seat. He made her
laugh, even on those not-so-good days when she would trip exiting the bus, or drop her
briefcase full of papers on the aisle floor.

Each morning they made the journey together, and Mark would take a cab back to his
office. Although this routine was even more costly and exhausting than the previous one,
Mark knew it was only a matter of time before Susan would be able to ride the bus on her
own. He believed in her, in the Susan he used to know before she'd lost her sight, who
wasn't afraid of any challenge and who would never, ever quit.

Finally, Susan decided that she was ready to try the trip on her own. Monday morning arrived, and before she left, she threw her arms around Mark, her temporary bus riding companion, her husband,
and her best friend. Her eyes filled with tears of gratitude for his loyalty, his patience, and
his love. She said good-bye, and for the first time, they went their separate ways.
Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday.... Each day on her own went perfectly, and
Susan had never felt better. She was doing it! She was going to work all by herself.

On Friday morning, Susan took the bus to work as usual. As she was paying her fare to exit
the bus, the driver said, "Boy, I sure envy you."
Susan wasn't sure if the driver was speaking to her or not. After all, who on earth would
ever envy a blind woman who had struggled just to find the courage to live for the past
year? Curious, she asked the driver, "Why do you say that you envy me?"
The driver responded, "It must feel so good to be taken care of and protected like you
are."
Susan had no idea what the driver was talking about, and again asked, "What do you
mean?"
The driver answered, "You know, every morning for the past week, a fine looking
gentlemen in a military uniform
has been standing across the corner watching you when you get off the bus. He makes
sure you cross the street safely and he watches until you enter your office building. Then
he blows you a kiss, gives you a little salute and walks away. You are one lucky lady."

Tears of happiness poured down Susan's cheeks. For although she couldn't physically see
him, she had always felt Mark's presence. She was lucky, so lucky, for he had given her a
gift more powerful than sight, a gift she didn't need to see to believe—the gift of love that
can bring light where there had been darkness.

:')